Tis the time of year for reflection. And revisiting the resolutions from last year. Which can be affirming and depressing at the same time. At least is was for me this year. I pretty much batted a .500, which is pretty good for baseball and far less impressive for goal setting. Still, if I try and look at the bright side, I did pretty well. But then again it depends on the way you look at it. I failed miserably in a few categories. But I guess that's the challenge, isn't it? Why set a resolution you can accomplish without any effort?
To start out with the positive, here are the resolutions I kept:
#1. Run my first half marathon.
Check.
#2. Read twenty books. That was accomplished by the skin of my teeth. Many of them have been listed along the side here, but they are (in order of completion, and without authors - sorry, authors)...Blink, The Memory Keepers Daughter, Grace Based Parenting, Friday Night Knitting Club, The Story of Edgar Sawtelle, Committed, Unaccustomed Earth, The Story of Hansel and Gretel, Half Broke Horses, The Red Tent, Memoirs of a Geisha, The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society, The Girl with the Dragon Tatoo, Mockingjay, The Winter of our Discontent, Water for Elephants, Into Thin Air, Hidden Power and House Rules. Whew! Twelve of these were read for book club and the other eight were random additions. I have been watching way too much Friday Night Lights lately and haven't read nearly enough. I have a long list that I'm hoping to read in 2011. We shall see...P.S. They were not all good books, so this is not a public endorsement ;). My favs? It's hard to say but my top three would probably be: Guernsey, Into Thin Air & Grace Based Parenting
#3. Launch my bow business.
Check. It's not going crazy or anything, but it's about where I want it to be. It keeps me busy from time to time without being
too busy, which is a very fine line. I enjoy it, so it's a nice little release.
Now that I'm feeling pretty good about myself, this little list brings me back to reality. My failed resolutions:
#1. Make at least one new recipe a week in 2010. Hmmm. I really did try on this one. For a while, at least. I even kept a list of all my new recipes with star ratings along the side. Impressive, I know. I think I made it through the second week of March before my little system completely derailed. I really don't know what went wrong besides life (and my patheticness) getting in the way. Of course I made new recipes here and there throughout the rest of the year, but not with quite the same intentionality.
#2. Meet or chat with my Younglives mentee once a week. Ashley, if you read this, I'm sorry. I know that we have kept up over the last year, but not with the intention I had wanted. There were certainly weeks that went by, especially in the summer months, where I basically fell of the planet. Lesson learned from my first two failures: Resolutions that require weekly commitments do not work well for me (unless it's eat ice cream or chocolate or something like that. Sigh). It must be a personality flaw.
#3. Learn to sew. Now this one is probably my most embarrassing failure yet. If you want to maintain any amount of respect for me, just skip this number. But it was a resolution so I must reflect upon it. I asked for a sewing machine for my birthday in March. I got it. I was also invited to about ten "sewing club" parties hosted by a friend. I did not go. And then I met a new friend this fall, Kelly, who asked for a sewing machine for Christmas this year. She asked me if I had a machine and which kind. Only then did I open up the amazon box and find out. Oh yeah, and this conversation happened about a month ago. So yes, my brand new sewing machine sat in a box downstairs for about nine months before I opened it.
I used to tell people that dressing up for a workout was half the battle. I could absent-mindedly put on my running pants, sports bra, t-shirt, and shoes. Then I would eventually think "gosh, I'm already dressed. I may as well go". I thought this same logic might work for my sewing machine. If I got it as a birthday present, I'd pretty much certainly learn to sew. Wrong.
I will say, however, that I did get out my sewing machine for the first time three weeks ago. This is entirely because my same friend (
Kelly), ended up buying the same machine. And my other very inspirational go-getter of a friend (
Carly) practically dragged me to her house to make a project that she a) found b) planned and c) held my hand through. And after Carly and Kelly threaded my machine and walked me through it, I did finish my first project (this is what it was
supposed to look like) and this is what it ended up looking like (a purposeful view - can you really see any of it? Not really.)

But I will not say that I accomplished my resolution because I still do not know how to sew. The good news? If my friends stay as diligent, I may be close to accomplishing this roll-over resolution in the year 2011.
That brings me to my new resolutions:
#1. Learn to sew.
#2. Go on a twice monthly date with my husband. We're hit or miss right now in the date department and I think he deserves a resolution. He is the love of my life, after all.
#3. Become a birthday remembering, hand-written-card-sending person.
#4. Spend quality God time each day. Stop putting ridiculously high expectations surrounding it. Start planning it around Clara's schedule, not necessarily before she wakes up, when I'm a lazy pile. Stop getting mad at myself for my inconsistency. And start really praying for people,every time I say it, especially whilst hand-washing all my dishes, which takes about an hour each day. Geesh. This one may be a little hard to reflect on. My education background keeps whispering at me "measureable and attainable"...
#5. Start selling my bows at my hairdresser's business (who offered) so I can make them on my own schedule.
And that seems like enough for this year. It's an odd number so I'll either do better than this year or worse. Hopefully not worse.
In all seriousness (since half this post has been sarcastic...which my lovely friend Amy recently pointed out is kind of my writing style), this time of year is a great time to reflect and goal set. There are things that I'd like to improve on in the year 2011. And I'm excited to attempt to accomplish my goals. What I'm even more excited about, though, has nothing to do with me and my plans and that is watching the Lord work in our lives this year. I know that he has much in store for us, and ultimately, that is what I want to see in the coming year.